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after trying to explain to you.
you still think its my fault.
you still think i spoil your day.

but on the other hand, dont you think its wrong of you to play until forget to eat dinner?
i didnt even say you when i knew you didnt had any dinner.

i’m just so unhappy that i’ve to take all the blame.

fuck it.

all i want is everybody to go for dinner happily.
and yet i cannot afford to do so.
i’m just so lousy.

i admit i’m sad that you went fishing today.
but then after that, i sort out my feelings and was feeling good already.
was just a little unhappy that you concentrate of your game and didn’t even update me on your status.
but overall, i’m feeling fine.
i’m really ok.

and until dinner time, you still didnt sms.
so i guess that you must have skipped your meal to play.
or maybe you forget the time.
so i sms you, then u will see your phone.
then maybe you rmb to go eat?

why is it that even after i tell you the reason why i don’t want you to help pay for the lunch and yet you can still say you cannot accept the reason.
you know how hurt i am?

its my first expensive meal treat to my family and plus you.
and yet i can’t do it.
and i’m already feeling very terrible.
and yet you made it worse.

now plans have been changed to dinner at food court.
why can’t you come together with us?
why must you make me so sad?

why is it that you must make me feel until i’m the one who spoils your day?

work.

i use like it a lot.
excited about it every single day.

but now,
i feel so sleepy and tired after lunch.

all i want is just to go home and sleep.

how can i get back all those excitment in the past?
i really want to work hard and well to get a promotion and great bonus next year.

sighh..

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wedding.

this is about you.

somehow, i still feel that you’re not very interested in it.
i don’t feel the excitment in you.
it takes 2 hands to clap.
same for wedding.
it takes 2 people to be excited about it.
then it will be fun and meaningful.
maybe its because we’re still young?

even though it’s only ROM.
it’s still important to me.
i’m marrying someone i love and i want it to be special in every ways.

it’s every girl’s dream to have a special and memorable wedding.
and it’s mine too.

sigh..

somehow, this feeling is making me feel upset almost everyday.

i thought i will be alright after a night’s sleep.
but i’m not.

i’m sorry.

friends.

they are people who are suppose to stand by you and understand you.

i had lots of friends.
they come and go.
i had worse ones too.
hurt me in all sorts of manner.
till i hate going to school.

but then again, they made me learn things.
things which will never be taught in the textbooks.

and that’s to be wary of the friends you make.
only those who really care and love you will stand by you when you’re in trouble.

i have 2 friends.
close ones.
really close.
i suppose now we’re not as close as before.

the relationship with my 2 friends still continue on even after we left school.
and i really treasure this relationship with them.

used to think we are S.H.E.
but now, maybe not.

somehow, that email really broke my heart.
but still, the dinner on friday went well.

i do love the both of them very much.
and i really treat them as though they’re my family.

but am i treated the same way?

Finally got some mood to blog. =D

went to see fireworks with love yesterday.

magnificant fireworks i must say.
but baby said it’s normal only.

let’s go again next year!!
heh.

went shopping for bra yesterday as well.
i seriously need bra now.
they are all now either dam old, or torn apart.
how to wear??

even if i want to buy now also no use la.
no $$ leh.
zzz…

but i think i will buy that triump push up bra for my bday celebration.
which is on the 10 Sep.

come to think of it.
i’ve not much time left sia.
gotta have a more strict diet now. =X
i wanna look nice nice on my bday…

anyway.
went zoo with baby love today.
had soooo much fun.

the quote of the day: you jumpie i jumpie.
LOL
so funny. =D

i think i will wanna go zoo again.
shall we baby?

alright.
i think i had enough rest.
had a super long plus enjoyable weekends.
will sure to have extra energy tomorrow when i go work.
yays!!
cheers everyone.
good night. =D

you know, sometimes, you are the one who makes people angry and pissed off.
can you change your attitude?
is booking a restaurant so difficult for you?
you ask me to choose one restaurant for my bday celebration.
and yet after i choose and asked you to book, you shoot me with a ‘I DON’T WANT.’
you know how hurt i feel?
maybe baby is right?
i’m always the one who gives presents, plan celebrations for your birthdays and get nothing in return.
do you know that when you tell me you gonna celebrate my bday with iris.
you know how happy i am?
to be honest, this is the first time.
maybe its cause it’s my 21st bday.
i don’t want anything in return.
i just want you to treat me as a friend.
like how i treat you.
like how i respect you and give in to you.
is that so difficult?
now i know why i always reject your offer to go out.
i prefer to go out with my bf.
more fun and enjoyable.
i’m always the one who has to give in, when will it be your turn?