♥ – ★

today’s my big day.
and yet it’s raining cats and dogs now. =/

oh well, better to rain now than later.
hope it will be sunny again later! =)

oh yes.
tomorrow’s friday.
like so finally.
the week is coming to an end.
and tat means weekends are here and finally, rest time.

bday bash is coming.
in just..
let me count…
8 more days..
i hope everything will go smooth smooth on that day.
hehe.

tml’s the launch of Hebe’s solo album.
i’m so gonna buy it.
omg..

and when’s S.H.E album gonna come out?
and their concert dvd?
and MV dvd??

oh my oh my.
what the hell am i blogging..

oh ya.
one more thing.
i’m so broke this month.

go le ba.
bye.

after trying to explain to you.
you still think its my fault.
you still think i spoil your day.

but on the other hand, dont you think its wrong of you to play until forget to eat dinner?
i didnt even say you when i knew you didnt had any dinner.

i’m just so unhappy that i’ve to take all the blame.

fuck it.

all i want is everybody to go for dinner happily.
and yet i cannot afford to do so.
i’m just so lousy.

i admit i’m sad that you went fishing today.
but then after that, i sort out my feelings and was feeling good already.
was just a little unhappy that you concentrate of your game and didn’t even update me on your status.
but overall, i’m feeling fine.
i’m really ok.

and until dinner time, you still didnt sms.
so i guess that you must have skipped your meal to play.
or maybe you forget the time.
so i sms you, then u will see your phone.
then maybe you rmb to go eat?

why is it that even after i tell you the reason why i don’t want you to help pay for the lunch and yet you can still say you cannot accept the reason.
you know how hurt i am?

its my first expensive meal treat to my family and plus you.
and yet i can’t do it.
and i’m already feeling very terrible.
and yet you made it worse.

now plans have been changed to dinner at food court.
why can’t you come together with us?
why must you make me so sad?

why is it that you must make me feel until i’m the one who spoils your day?

work.

i use like it a lot.
excited about it every single day.

but now,
i feel so sleepy and tired after lunch.

all i want is just to go home and sleep.

how can i get back all those excitment in the past?
i really want to work hard and well to get a promotion and great bonus next year.

sighh..

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wedding.

this is about you.

somehow, i still feel that you’re not very interested in it.
i don’t feel the excitment in you.
it takes 2 hands to clap.
same for wedding.
it takes 2 people to be excited about it.
then it will be fun and meaningful.
maybe its because we’re still young?

even though it’s only ROM.
it’s still important to me.
i’m marrying someone i love and i want it to be special in every ways.

it’s every girl’s dream to have a special and memorable wedding.
and it’s mine too.

sigh..

somehow, this feeling is making me feel upset almost everyday.

i thought i will be alright after a night’s sleep.
but i’m not.

i’m sorry.